Saturday, August 3, 2013

Pinprick of the heart (#1646)

When nothing else is in it's place a void will try to find meaning of some form. Not always right but something must fill the space. Such it is with strong emotional feelings. Dwelling on the past does me no good but in lieu of something in it's place here I am. Oh well, it is best to let it go and think about other things while my emotions go back to a more quiet state. Life is like that, if we don't find something of the same nature to fill our lives we will stew in what could have been or what would never have been. Who knows but such idle imaginings are of no value and thus need no further consideration, at least that is what logic tells me. However my emotions have never been much for following the rules of logic, instead they operate on some otherworldly force that evades my describing it. Normally I would not have delved into this subject but the realness of it defies me to ignore it. Faced with agreeing with the logic of ignorance I have no chance therefore here I am discussing my frailty like it is running water. As my mind and soul rumble through my past I am reminded of my many faults and the 20/20 hindsight I now have as opposed to the inept consciousness I had back when. There is some salve for my wounds in that I am not the only one who has failure as his prize since so many like me have a same tale of woe. Misery does love company if for only a moment and then again I am reminded that our species has so very far to go in mastering our thoughts, emotions and behaviors. For now I will move on from my contemplation of what could have been to what may still be able to occur, just like hope prescribes.

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