Now I know there are some out there who would say "come on Carl, it is a setback but we can overcome this", and I would halfheartedly agree. Yet my soul is tired. There is a wound there that has torn me in a way that can only be described as nearly fatal. Now don't get me wrong, I still enjoy the idea of writing about the best of who we are but the sense that it is not enough is real. However, all that being said, I cannot think what it would be like to give up on anything that has such potential and value to all of us. Not my daily writings but my hope for all of our hopes and dreams. I am not a quitter even when my soul is so wounded and I am exhaustively tired of the failures.
I know others in life have endured much harsher realities and fates and I must continue to see that although the best of me is being tested I am so fortunate to be here just deciding whether to do something or not. I get the perspective in a comprehensive way and if I cannot find the silver lining in things so that I can rebuild my energies and recapture the hubris I have for our species then I will have failed as a human being, not just as an advocate for us. Like the title of this post declares, I do this because I care and the care has not left me in any questionable way.