I have always known virtuousness but earlier in my life I chose to ignore it and let my fantasies be fueled by the temptations that were all around me. I tried to live as someone I was not and finally, after too many waking moments of guilt and remorse I realized that I couldn't go on being who I was being and still be who I was deep down inside me. A crossroads was reached and I choose to go back to being who I initially started out life as, someone who was more proud, in the best se3nse of the word, to be helpful and sacrifice, and dismissed that someone I had become, who was more reckless and selfish.
I realized that the temptations that were luring me in were not lasting. They were more an illusion of what I dreamed about and less a reality in actuality. It was courageous of me to make a stand and ground my feet firmly in the honor and nobility of virtue despite any and all unintentional setbacks. I am human and as such still prone to weakness and frailty. However when those few times happen when I do fail the test of virtue I recover quickly to exit myself from the allure. I try to live a virtuous life because it feels right in my soul. If there is one thing I have learned about being alive in this existence, it is that feeling right is much much better than chasing a never fulfilling illusion.