Monday, January 5, 2015

What I want to give away (#2166)

Today's blog post is a bit pedestrian but it is reflective of where I am with my life right now. The stuff that I have left that I have accumulated over time has been on my mind. I know you may have thought that I was going to go on and on about abstract thinking or social awareness but no, I am referring to my physical things. They were so important to me that I was willing to sacrifice of myself and others to attain them. Now all I can think about is how to give them to others who could really use them. Commercialism had me for a long while and I am not alone in this since most all my peers are of the same perspective. I am not anymore however and the quicker I can get to simplifying my life to basic necessities and a few entertainments then the more efficient my life will be with what is left of it. Efficiency is the key. I wish to waste no more of my time on irrelevancies. I no longer have that sense within me that I am immortal somehow. My big fear throughout most of my life was not living beyond expected life span. Now I have not been one who easily skirts away from danger but deep down I hoped that dying would come long after a fruitful lifespan. I no longer think in those terms either. Now I just wish to do and be the best man I can be and whatever comes my way will not change my approach. I am no longer making strategies to circumvent my duties if those duties require gambling with my own life if need be. I just want to live the rest of my life in the moment and come what may is the paradigm for me. So all the things I have surrounded myself with are becoming more useless by the day. The quicker I get to lighting my load the better the rest of my life's journey will be. Now on to figuring out how best to dispose of what I previously didn't want to live without, not that the value of them is of any great amount...

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