(#6086) We know our own faults but we still give others hope

      It is surprising to me given how little I pay attention to these kinds of things but I have recently learned some people I have never met have actually heard of me. In a positive way nonetheless. Now that is not something I am too familiar with. I have had some momentary accomplishments that caught the attention of some before but not like this. This attention comes from me just being the good me as much as possible. I used to waver between the good me and the less good me out of some kind of convenience I suppose. But not as time has gone by. I strive everyday to be the best me possible and it is forming into a routine for me that does not need to be calculated. I just am now.
     The hope that has come about for me to see is when meeting someone for the first time and hearing them say oh you are Carl. I have heard about you. Not in some embarrassing or nefarious way but as someone to be admired. I don't delve into the depth of that admiration suffice it to say I just modestly accept the compliment. What I do as routine seems to be having an effect on some who don't get to see that kind of positive routine regularly enough. When you keep just doing the correct thing it seems to be welcoming, at least to some. For me it is necessary because of my own faults and how I choose to address them.
     I am totally aware that my life is well into the last half of it so doing things properly is a stubborn goal I will not compromise. I wish I had started this earlier in my life but then wishes don't work when there is no going back. I prefer to think of my finally becoming and defining who I am as a miracle of sorts to me anyway that at least arrived when it did. There is no handbook for how to live in a world full of evolving complexities and variations. But what we can do is approach every second of our lives with the focused purpose of honor, dignity, and respect. I will always put my best foot forward and then react to how that changes the world around me. I am not a problem in the world anymore and that is at minimum a fulfilling purpose.