(#5949) Enjoyment in life not struggle!

      The idea that I even have to post about this subject tells everyone just how ridiculous and unfocused we are as a species. There are many of us who know this and try to live this way but there are just as many who don't know this and keep contributing to the problem of keeping us struggling. We don't need possessions to make us happy we need purpose to our lives that bring about satisfaction and that costs nothing but our time and energy. I do my chores and then some so that I am constantly reminded that getting things done is what I do best and it serves my need to be validated. yes, even I feel like I need to be validated. But not by others but instead by myself.
     I am the ruler of the good ship Carl and my stewardship of me is intricate and at times unique. But the simplicity of my purpose in life is in my care to do what is right in front of me. There is no ego in that just a simple task followed by many more. I am not trying to avoid anything I am just trying to make things better for our existence. I wish I had been better prepared at a younger age to learn more than I know now but I am where I am and that will have to be good enough. I don't blame nor accuse. I am the master of me and all choices have been mine. So what I do going forward is all about maintaining and creating a better existence for those coming after me, whomever they are.
     I didn't get to choose to be here in existence I was born with no foreknowledge to my being. Yet I was nurtured and then learned what I could from what was offered and here I am. As my wherewithal has slowed, my contemplation of purpose has not. Factually my body has slowed down but not my mind nor my will to push myself. I don't get enjoyment from the advertisements, I get enjoyment from being a part of a greater naturally good force than myself. I get my satisfactions from helping others achieve in ways that are fruitful and appreciated. Instead of making life a struggle like some current negative forces I prefer to have a positive force in my life and will eventually die knowing I didn't waver!