(#5926) Getting into my groove every morning...

      As soon as my eyes open in the morning I look upward to see what the red projected light reads on my bedroom ceiling. It is usually very early but that is cool because I like being awake more than sleeping. If I am awake it means my body is ready to stop lying down and needs to get up. The early rising has been my normal for decades especially since I gave up the booze and one night stands as the song lyric goes. It might be subconsciously psychological as well since I am getting one more day closer to my expiration. So each day is a value to be started properly. No matter the news, I have to have my own agenda for living that exceeds all that is around me. I am one who is invested in the arc of our overall happiness yet I still need to be there at the start to be effective.
     Finding my groove from each days waking is not as easy as it should be. There is enough turmoil in my personal life and the world at large to shake me from any restful place I may have been at before falling asleep. Once I see the time I know what I must do. Sometimes it is to rollover and sleep for another hour or two. But mostly it is to get up and begin my morning regimen of chores that have become my responsibility. Once done I can then sit for a moment and get my mind into a place where good things can happen and the bad things can be filed away for more advanced thought later toward a solution. My process is to begin from the better in order to solve the worse.
     This morning it is music to settle my mind into a fertile place where ideas can grow without the weeds and rocks obstructing. I find that going to sleep angry is contingent upon the level of frustration that is triggered and how inundated it is.. I don't always control when I need to sleep but I do control how I wake up into my new thoughts. Sleep is my void in time to allow me to reset. So my mornings are like a chance to be me in a better way because I can calm myself from any left over before sleep anxieties. In essence the mornings allow me to see my destiny as solutions not like the problems from the day before. I love my mornings.