(#6075) The spirit of my soul is still unsettled

      I can still feel an uneasiness within me about where I am and where I could be. I am ninety nine percent good where I am at but there is still a little niggling. My nature has always been one of adventure. The idea of settling down was never a top priority in my life. Yet I am getting older and my responsibilities are numerous. Yet like in the movie Chocolat, the lead had always been a wanderer. I really do identify with that wandering role. We humans are so different in many ways and in this I suspect that my life choices have centered for the most part on that inclination.
     What is somewhat not surprising though is that when I do get somewhere else I soon realize a fondness from where I left that is stronger than it was when I actually left. Yet even more is the feeling to go somewhere completely new that somehow has inspired me. These inclinations of mine are well and good for a younger version of me but not so much for me in this older age timeframe. Too many factors come into play that were not there when I was a younger version of myself. Yet the inclinations continue to surface regardless of my evolved biological persona.
     I know that we humans are not naturally settled beings. We have too many physical and mental attributes to be sedentary. However as children of our societies we are brought up to stand in lines of eventualities. Those of us who are not kin to being conformed find our way out of the lines and into the unknown. Yet in the unknown we can find a place for ourselves even if it is drifting. I know I am one of the unsettled ones who has landed here and for now will stay. But the issue, like me isn't settled. For now though I am satisfied even though not completely at ease. The future will bring its presence and then I will reexamine my own.