(#6277) I came in by myself and will go out by myself but what I do in between that matters!

      The cycle of life does not change for anyone! I know this because we all have a start and an end. The difference between all of us is what we do with that time in between. Those of us who survive to an older age realize that the formative years were a mixed bag of what we could have or should have done but the years after are the most valuable. Then is when we decide our own fates every second of every day. For me there was a lot of selfishness and trial and error. But even more there was a lot of good stewardship in a lot of ways. I struggled for quite sometime with my inability to master what was really important to me but I eventually found the answers I needed.
     One of the answers I found is that I don't need anyone to validate my life. Another was that I am not here for anything other than my own expectations. I follow along with commonly held themes of expectations of society but they are not necessarily my hierarchy of priorities. My expectations of myself is the magic of who I am. Within those expectations is logic and reality that keeps me grounded to my possibilities but in no way are they restrictions on what is possible. In other words I am mature enough to accept reality from fantasy. I am also mature enough to show that I am my very own person who is not dependent upon another to coddle me or vanquish any demons I may have.
     I am at a plateau though where I had hoped to move on from. It isn't my emotions that need advancement but my mind and it's yet untapped unknowns. I am at the point of winding down my life yet at the same time still trying to expand my life between my ears. It is a unique place I find myself in where what little I have gained is dwarfed by my own expectations for more. In a very simple childlike term, I am the little engine that could yet has yet to succeed. My life between being born and then dying is still being experienced but the clock is ticking. What possibly irks me most is that I am spending a lot of my precious time still fighting against the simple who will not allow themselves to enjoy complexity.