(#5991) Honesty isn't infallible, but it is close

      Here is how honesty works for me. Especially when it involves me in some hardship. First thought through my head is how wronged I have been. It is natural I suppose to think of ourselves as infallible when something jumps up out of the blue to make life harder for us. Even those things we control. Like this morning I noticed I was paying more than double the bill I normally pay for a service. My first thought was this bill must be a scam. Amusing since I defaulted immediately to there is no way this is correct. But soon afterward I had a lingering doubt that maybe I did screw something up.
     After careful examination I began to realize that I did screw something up. A something I never screw up. Once again by default I began to lay blame at the feet of ageism. Although again I quickly reversed out of that and understood that this month has been economically challenging with me jumping through hoops to make ends meet. I was the cause of my less than major trouble and there was no excuse for it other than I lost track of a responsibility. I am the loose cog in the wheel. I can say that with no shame or remorse. Because my world revolves around the truth of things not the salve many need to avoid the truth. Even though my first instinct was to look elsewhere for blame I quickly realized that looking for the blame was as easy as looking in the mirror.
     I say honesty isn't infallible because it does have its peculiar perspectives at times but in most cases honesty is infallible. All we have to do is remove our own biases and prejudices and then most all becomes rationally clear. In my world there is no bank error in my favor. What is more likely to happen is I make an error and then must unravel its truth and then rectify it. For one thing it settles me in that I know the logic always delivers when I pay attention to it. I also know that I am fallible so when the truth of something shows itself I am not surprised nor too reluctant to embrace it. I don't like making mistakes or being wrong as per my initial default thinking. That said, I am the epitome of saying sorry and/or making something correct.