(#5758) I have nothing this morning

      There will be no complaining nor finger pointing from me because I just feel hollow inside. Nothing brewing in me but dumbfoundedness. I have little to no cares left to give except that I have to go to work today to resume my unfulfilled existence. I have hopes and dreams within me but for now they are on hold. Just the one foot in front of the other cadence I need to continue. I have not lost my smile nor my characteristic behavior, although tempered, still there. So that is how I continue. I just meet each scenario that presents itself to me with as much good willed gusto as possible. I know changes are coming but for now they are not clearly defined and in that vacuum I will exist.
     I am not different from the many of us who expected more from all of us Americans. We really let too many of us down while as well dismissing the hopeful feelings of the world who look to us to carry the banner of freedom and equality. The numbing will eventually fade and a new rallying will emerge but for these early days the hope of our American democracy has taken a big hit. I will apologize to the world and my similar minded fellow Americans who fought hard to keep our democracy intact. We did not fail to organize and present our arguments for preserving our democracy to all who would listen. The problem is that even though hearing our plea for justice and honor it was not acted upon. Too many did not bother to give their voice to a vote so we lost by default to the monsters who will now have their way with us and the world at large.
     We just went through terror from 2017 to 2021 but it seems that we Americans are not able to remember the horror of that time perpetrated by the same person who is now going to do an even more cruel job of it for the next 4 years. I would say we deserve what we do to ourselves but not all of us. Some of us are constantly reminding our citizenry of what is nobly possible and we are not given the respect of that effort in votes. Instead we are ignored and then the worst comes about. I know we Americans have been given great things from our foreparents but it seems that we are unable to appreciate them like they deserve to be appreciated. The hardships are coming again instead of the great things that could have been. Self inflicted wounds seem to be the new American motto.