(#5766) It is going to take a while...

      I am going to be fine in some amount of time. But knowing when is the problem. I just don't seem to want to care anymore about anything that has always been important to me for all of us. But that will pass and I will once again get on my best behavior. For now I am so gutted that it is like I need some kind of catalyst to reconnect myself with myself. I don"t like having to wait on chance or karma or fate but it seems that is what I need to jolt me back to my best self. Even knowing what I need is not enough to get me to it. I just know that in time I will find my way back. Nothing has ever changed in my life about how I care for all of us.
     I suppose it is because all of us have a major group of nincompoops that care only about themselves or have given up being informed with facts and truths instead of conveniences and laziness. Then there are those who are devoid of care for anyone other than themselves and theirs. How I work is that I want all of us to succeed in life even those who are not up to speed on that dynamic. As bright as I see what could be our future I am also aware of the pain and suffering we bring to each other and the darkness it tempers the light with. I am a human being who is emotional and caring. So when those around me are caused pain because of ignorance and/or debased concepts I build up within me a simmering not akin to hope and joy!
     But that simmering within me has no outlet so a nullification process within me needs time to get me back to my clear happy self. With the results of this last election however more time than normal is required. I will be back but not as soon as some are able to bounce back. I admire them for their ability to flush this disappointment in ways that allow them to stand and fight so quickly. I will be there but not at the moment. I cannot even find the joy to write my blog posts. I will not stop in a most foundational way but nothing much more will be coming from me for now. I do miss me and hopefully sooner than later I will be back to having fun and enjoying life as a grateful human being who knows he is fortunate to live in this existence despite its obvious flaws.