(#5764) Like the song lyric says, reach out of the darkness!

     I know that feeling low is a real thing and being in a low place is not healthy. Yet living in reality is what got me there. I am a human being who is affected by things that matter to me and when those things go awry so do I in some way. I know all this so it isn't some mystery to me. It is just how I am. But, it isn't a constant. I am evolving daily so what got me to a low place cannot keep me there because I am not stuck in a status quo type reality. I move on because I am evolving daily. I may not evolve quickly but I do evolve. So as I am meandering in my low spot for now I can already sense a change coming. Time is the best healer for now and the little bit of time that has passed is already working as a salve to my near fatal wound.
     I can feel the inkling of a ferocity that is welling up within me even though it is so slight at the moment. Knowing myself as I do I can be assured that this peek at a coming anger is not an illusion. It is a response to the devastation I have fought against for too much of my adult life. I won't be changing from whom I have always been. What will happen in its appropriate timing is me coming back to work to bring us back once again to a brink where next time we don't fall short. I have had the resolve to get past this type of disappointment and will again restore that energy at my full disposal. I know this because I know me. I am no quitter who will languish in sorrow. Instead I will spend time to decompress and process my failures and then lift my head ready to battle the forces that deny human and other animal rights.
     I am not there yet but I feel the resurgence however little it is for now. I am not one who takes failure well. I have been shaken to my core by it. So as the deep drop of failure has taken me down, the rising back up will also be a climb. But climb I will and when I have resteadied my footing back on solid ground the battle for the soul of humanity will once again commence from my being. My contribution for now is to allow myself some grace to mourn. The sensitivity of this failure has hit me in such an acute way as to nearly dissolve my care for what is correct and good. Nearly, is not completely. As long as there is a shred of decency left in the world I will align with it. So beware those who would unlink equality and freedom from humanity...