(#6028) I wasn't raised to be me

      Very little of what I was taught about who I should have been has been what I wanted. It seems much of my upbringing focused around what others wanted me to be or what they thought I should be given their understanding. As for me I never knew anything about what I wanted to be and to this very day still don't. I suppose I am no different than the majority of folks out there. This existence and our societies don't offer brilliant opportunities at every turn instead they only offer some and they are as hard to achieve as you probably already imagine. Some folks are lucky and are brought up in families where the vision for their futures is clear and desired.
     But for the many more of us the future doesn't hold clear and simple decisions. We fight and claw for basics and wonder why? How serene it must be for the few who do not worry about holes in their clothes and shoes. How satisfying it must be for those who make messes and watch others clean them up for them. How safe it must be for those who don't sleep on the street in a tent or a makeshift cardboard domicile. How fulfilling it must be to sit at a table with a hot cooked meal placed before us when so many eat from a wrapper out of their uncleaned hands. The many of us see the world and are not inspired to be a greater part of it. So just surviving and trying to stay out of the way is the goal.
     In my own particular case I was fortunate to have been a good enough person who helped others and through karma was helped by others. My plight isn't so bad yet my purpose to do greater things was never really an option. I live a good life and bring a smile wherever I can but that is something we all should be able to do just as a default. I will never know my potential because the attraction to something I desired to be never materialized. Well except the impossible through fantastic imaginings. But wishing to be something that cannot be is not purposeful. Our society is lacking a focus to bring our species along to a higher order of things and as we sit back and blame those who are not to blame, the work of giving more brilliant opportunities to our children keeps slipping away from us.