(#5826) Keeping my happy

      It has taken me many years since I was a child to recapture my happy. In our American declaration of independence it talks about us pursuing our happiness which is kind of like where I am now. Not so much pursuing but living. My life to anyone on the outside looking in at is nothing special or unique. It is more plain and ordinary than anything else. But what resides within me is special and unique and that cannot be witnessed by just looking at my life. You would have to be around me to see that inner happiness manifest itself in just about everything I do or say. I am human and the happy does slip away for short periods of time but for the most part it is who I truly am.
     Even when I am disappointed, like with the last election, disappointed being a kind description, I still find my way back to who I am. I have to move on like with everything that happens. Because I am in a state of constant evolution. My existence demands from me to stay current with my learning and understanding. So no matter what happens in this existence I keep moving forward until that final future moment when I cannot. So whilst I am still moving around as me I will keep my happy in the forefront of my life. For so many years I was disgruntled and unhappy because I couldn't seem to make my life work the way I wanted it to work. The problem was I didn't even know what I really wanted.
     I solved that problem of what I wanted out of life and ever since then the happy has returned to me. For me it was just the simple idea of me being in a place where I controlled my own destiny. Where the trappings of life were less important than the freedom I have to express myself. I have the liberty to exist despite not having all the conveniences available. My contentment is a product of accepting that simplicity is best for me so that I can live each real moment like it is a gift. I don't take anything for granted any more. I don't deserve or need privilege as an excuse to be happy. I am happy as a foundational core because I am alive and able to think and act for myself.