(#5803) Forgetting and remembering

     Apparently I don't have anything of value to post today. All I did was self care. I was also called off work which kind of threw me off my schedule. There is no excuse for not posting a regular post just nothing that came to me or reminded me that I hadn't set down at my computer to write. I expect I am allowed a bit of a lapse now and then when it comes to having something on my mind to post about. I actually feel some remorse for not making sure I put something out into the ether to help with our understanding as human beings. But maybe just not having something important to say is part of being a human being once in a while.
     I know I am changing from a vibrant human being into a more sedate one and that cannot be disputed. I know me and I knew me so the obvious is clear. Yet I am not yet ready to slow down from my current pace. I just need to circumvent a little more in my staid times. Like right now. I was willing a couple of minutes ago to just let it go and not even try to write about my non posting earlier today. But instead I just let my fingers run over the keyboard and start a conversation about one of my occasional inadequacies. I am allowed because I am always hard on myself even when there is no deadline I must follow or some rule I have as to adhere.
     What is still spectacular to me is that when a word comes into my mind it seems to add itself to the flow of my consciousness. Sometimes I stop and reread what I have just written and I find most of the time it actually makes sense. As if I just need to let my mind and my fingers loose to do their thing. I am chuckling to myself now because I notice that the blog for today is about to be written when I had not one thought that would make it come into being. It has written itself around the idea that I forgot to write it this morning. lol. I know it isn't me so much as the Universe doing what it wants whenever it wants. I accept that and will finish now with the thought that this blog is important to me almost like the child I never had.