(#5801) Finally settling back in at my house

      I am finding that my routines are coming back to me the way I had them previously before I moved away earlier this year. If you don't know this yet your home is like a living organism. It requires constant care in ways that change subtly if left unnoticed. I have been back about 6 months and I am just now getting back to a semblance of regular order. My move then remove over a relatively short time has been a bit of an upheaval in that what was before I left has now altered. I was more rigid in my approach to life here and when I got back my perspective had been softened.
     Although a bit altered I am still who I am and the necessities of life continue. Such is the case with living in my home again. When I left my brother John who lived with me was still alive but had been in the care facility when I left. Being back and not having John alive any longer cast a pall over my return that to this day still lives within me. Yet life goes on for those of us who are still here and although sad thoughts are continuing they are slowly diminishing. When I left I could not take my animals with me as there was no place for them where I went and this home here was always their home. When I got back they pretty quickly realized that I wasn't going away again and they fell back into their routines with me.
     The house itself had its quirks and added a few more in my absence. I was as well caught up in my own personal health issues to deal with in my return home. I have since caught up with the quirks of the house and the issues concerning my health. So my out of balance feeling after returning is now more one in tune with a sense of purposeful calm. I feel like my head is above water and I am not treading water to mark time. My routines are naturally returning as the needs of the house continue. I actually feel like I am looking out ahead instead of just waiting for whatever present need crops up. I am no longer playing catch up with many things and maybe now even looking into how my future may develop. I am starting to feel comfortable again.