(#5871) I miss so many good people

      I suppose I am just being nostalgic but it is good for me to remember those who have gone on from this existence. They were all different in their ways but in all cases they were special to me. This isn't one of those only the good die young posts. This is one of those I really miss too many of the people that helped shape my life and brought the joy out in me. That is what this post is about. Those that are no more too soon for me anyway. I will be selfish here and admit that I am thinking about how I feel about this and not anyone else. I know how I feel while I don't exactly know how others feel. I also suppose what irks me is that too many that are unworthy of a special consideration in my life are still here.
     So instead of being surrounded by the best people I knew I am less so now. So many bad people in my life are no more but they were banished long ago because once I am thrown under the bus so to speak I don't let that possibility ever happen again. So it isn't that I am surrounded by more bad people it is that I have less good ones to share life with. Going through life from the early days until now opened up lots of scenarios where the people I could interact with showed who they were. Nowadays it is harder to meet people in interesting situations because I am older and more set in my ways of dull and boring happiness. Gone are the days of adventure and discovery so my life is pretty much defined now.
     I am still able to meet new people occasionally but the meeting is more perfunctory than energetically hubristic. I find that getting to know good people needs to involve them in situations where happiness and hope are options. When someone new allows you to see them at their core and the core is bright and shining then goodness will flow. I have had the good fortune in my life to meet people like this and now that many are gone there is a void in me that is not ever easily replaced. I again suppose that it is the nature of mortality, we get what we get for a short time in relative terms and then when what we got is no more then that is our reality. I don't like that fact and apparently I am lamenting it here.